Why I Murder Me Daily
On my own I suck, I’m so confused and misguided
My flesh tells me to lie, cheat, steal and be rewarded
Like Thomas, sometimes I wanna see the prints on His hands
So weak like seven days, yet loud like them rock bands
I’m aimed low now, on my own I can never win
So I let Him lead, on my own I only know to sin
Tried being the beast, dead end just like Tupac
Found myself in a casket, devil screaming, “Boy! You suck.”
So I called it quits, now I got that ‘No smoking’ sticker
I aint talking Madison or Pacific… hell fire really changed me quicker
But it was more of His love, now I’m on the grind in the body
I mean the body of Christ, now I got my Mr. Serve on
Wanted to be a ‘Teflon Don’, singing, “This is why I’m hot!”
But the cross showed me that really I was not
Not at all! I’m so dead, needed a Saviour to be redeemed from death
Now I’m free homeboy, now I’m His rest
Hold up homie! Chasing money, chicks and fame is lame!
We done tried it already, we still came back to call His name
Yeah, Jeezy and Ross got swag, I guess I’m dumb coz I aint got it
But then I love being dumb, coz I aint after what they chasing
Everyday is a battle; the dude in the mirror wants to run this life
But I kill him daily! Saddam Hussein style, even tried Osama
I’m a suicide bomber on him, yea, go ahead and ask my mama
I woke up today, signed a deal with that brother
“We can’t ever co-exist, one of us gotta die.” Heard what I say?
All he wants are lies; all he wants is sleep instead of pray
I’m like “You dying today homes!” He like “Bruce you tripping.”
I’m like I aint playing with you, Christ died, He wasn’t tripping
So you gotta too! Everyday of my life…I will never like you
“But I’m the face on your ID Bruce, you know you need me!”
I don’t need you at all, go ahead and get gone quickly
I’m living after the spirit, you’s a dirty old cheat
Yeah, I mean it man! And I aint nodding to that DJ Cleo beat
I’m dead to you, I’ma kill you till you the Christ returns
Go ahead and sulk at me…go ahead and tell your friends J
